I'm leaving tonight. Carrying guilt, shame, remorse, regrets but also happiness. Have anyone experienced the feeling that you yourself have went a long way, far enough to forget the past, far enough to distance the old self, far enough to be someone new. And at the end of the day, you realize that it's just another circle you travelled, bigger maybe but then you're still back to the same point. Point zero. Nothing have changed. You're still the same person as before. Maybe you got better in self deception, self cloaking and self masking but therein lies your old self. Unpolished. Unadorned. Another ending. I'll like to apologize to everyone, for those that i've forsaken recently. I might have been more or less rough, selfish and arrogant and i promise i'll try patch back the pieces i've shattered. For every single error and mistake, i beg for forgiveness and a chance to right the wrongs that i've done. I seldom pray in my life, yet tonight, i clasp my hands, blind my eyes and open up my heart. I held myself at your mercy and i beg for your forgiveness. I dare not demand nor negotiate but to have faith that a chance may be granted for a dire soul seeking peace and harmony, within and around. ^.^